u/DinosaurCowBoys1

It went better than I expected, I mean he doesn’t understand and thinks it’s a poor decision for my life, that it’ll be hard to live, to get a job, and maybe one day I’ll think it was a waste of time and that I shouldn’t of done all this. He said everyone’s dissatisfied with their body, he wishes he had hair, and that he looked like NFL player, but that he hasn’t gone and gotten a hair transplant. Which hurt but he also said that he loves me many times and that my brother and I are the light of his world and he’s going to love me no matter what.

Today was Mother’s Day and besides the bullshit of my mom puking in my bathroom and then falling asleep for 4 hours while I had to pay more for her parking every hour, it sucked, different story though.

My mom doesn’t know im trans and other than the 20 odd comments I got from the whole family on my hair and blah blah blah that I’m used to, I had to bind my chest to hide that I in fact have very noticeable B cups. My figure from my waist to my hips and my chest have really had fantastic changes over the last year, and even in my most baggy clothes it’s so fucking obvious and so I had to bind my chest.

I used this self adhesive athletic tape I had found, I had tried gauze originally but I didn’t want to waste them and had seen trans men use tape kinda like this before. I had to try like 5 times before I got it fit right, and even then the boobs were still kinda obvious to me, thankfully not to anyone else. It wasn’t that annoying at first but it was tight on my chest, just a slight annoyance and it wasn’t that bad but then my mom threw up and took a nap while I had to talk with my sisters who came up with her. Every passing hour and it was more and more annoying and uncomfortable. I eventually had to retreat to my room and peel it off slightly.

Now that they have left I peeled them off, it was so painful, my back is all red where it had stuck best, and my chest is tender and sore.

At the moment I’d rather come out to my family than do this again. I’m supposed to head back home from college Thursday and I just can’t imagine possibly doing anything similar to this for two whole months.