I need to know if that's ok
So, I'm 17 girl. I have never EVER experienced arousal. It's beautiful thing not being horny but it's still confusing. Like when I watch pron I like "oh... that... That's not what I want to do... or watch."
I still may find 18+ inappropriate things interesting but just in funny way. For example I have favourite hentai. But it's so funny in it's freakness (is it the right word? I hope so) I can't stop laughing every panel.
I think everyone one in this community experienced that but living in a world where sex and romance is THE basic state of humans is a little... confusing and uninteresting.
I LOVE my friends. I LOVE freak-ish things. I LOVE my hobbies. But I will not love a person in a romantic way. I just don't know how it supposed to feel.
I know how to love for something. "Ok. You you respect my personal space and match my vibe and etc? Depending on how well you do it, I will treat you in a certain way. The more the merrier I wanna hang out with you.". It's never butterflies in a belly and it probably never will. It's never "oh, he offended me and doesn't apologise but now we are happy again!" and it probably never will.
Relationship with me is never about love in a romantic way. It's just reflect your "coolness" in my eyes.
I tried to ask AI about that but I think real experience is more valuable and understandable than soulless AI