[discussion] "Just" started watching Re:Zero
I'm on S1:E9(on Crunchyroll anyways, idk why the episodes are so long so maybe its a localized format but Subaru just made it back to the castle after the white whale encounter where Rem sacrificed herself)
Genuinely what in the world is happening, I thought this would be a slightly darker version of an isekai where the main character time loops.
But it's a confusing and depressing mind fuck; I have felt no positive emotion since everyone saved the village(after the puppy curses Subaru)(except when Subaru hugs Rem right after reincarnation).
Is anything gonna get better? Subaru made an idiot out of himself and then kept tweaking out in the capitol when he defied Amelia's(or maybe the witch? so sus) order to stay; but honestly completely understandable because he has like the greatest power and also the biggest curse and he can't tell anyone about it; which basically forces her to distance herself from him for both their sakes. Then he time-loops a few times getting traumatized, being traumatized(holy shit cultist cave scene wtf), and trying to prevent the source of his trauma and getting labeled as a fool and a pathetic piece of trash. Then, with the semblance of hope that is him getting the traders to help him attempt to evacuate the village, the white whale kills everyone but him. After that, something rewrites reality to not have Rem(white whale???)? But she's in the next episode because I see her on the ep cover, which means likely even more unanswered questions(lowkey yay tho because I adore Rem, second to none favorite character). I do feel like maybe he's just speedrunning trauma and dealing with how unfair the world is, but there is like no relief anywhere and it is really easy to think at this point it's not gonna get better. I don't see how he saves the town and the manor, if i was him i would just stay with Rem(but I'm selfish and only really care about Rem and Subaru, so I am not a righteous as Subaru)
Anyways. Please do not spoil anything for me, but maybe tell me if there's solace in this wretched story? Everything just keeps getting worse. I genuinely feel worse than when I was watching AOT, because at every point in AOT there is a character with the qualities needed to move through the story. Subaru is a 17 year old who has no idea what he's doing, can't tell anyone his secret, and is fighting seemingly everyone(except Rem ilysm Rem); there is also reincarnation ofc, but Subaru doesn't seem to like dying very much, and always dies after confusing me even more instead of answering questions; which makes watching the show bleak, disturbing, and heart crushing. My only solace is Rem. HELP!!(don't actually. I need to watch this nonsense till the end).
TL;DR Up until ep9, it seems like nothing could be going more wrong. I just needed to get this out because damn ts is hard to watch. No spoilers please, maybe just teeny bit of hope?