Do i need new friends?
For context, me(15f) and my friend, lets call them lil(15f) have only known each other about 4 years.
Im not sure exactly what im asking for here but I guess i want to know what tf to do.
I have been going through some sh!t for a while and to put it simply, im in a pretty bad place mentally, so naturally, i would try reach out to my friends for help or advice or support, etc. While I understand at 15/16 years of age, kids have no clue how to respond when a friend says "i need help" or even suggests anything like that but i just cant help but feel like my friends are being toxic or ignoring me because of this.
There is also no doubt that my friends have stuff going on at home aswell and I am in no way trying to say "my life is worse" or "your problems arent as bad as mine" I just see them supporting eachother and i keep on giving them help whenever they are feeling down or have a bad day and wonder why they dont do the same for me.
I cant post photos here but here is a brief summary of some text threads/conversations between us.
- me: hey "freinds name" i really need to talk to you about something if you have any time
them: "insert 67 sticker"
- (for context this happened after they had a panic attack in school)
me: hey im really worried about you, im sorry u felt like that today, im here if you need to talk <3
them: 👍
3.(i just had a panic attack and didnt know who else to talk to/text so i naturally texted my closest friend)
me: "opens up about a situation that i needed to get off my chest and said i needed to talk about it if they were able to talk with me for a min"
them: 👌
so im not sure if this is all in my head or if i need to just stop asking for help and go back to keeping all this sh!t to myself and never telling anyone until it all bursts and i embarrass myself infront of everyone around me. or if im in an unhealthy relationship and need to confront my friend(s) about it.
please give me some advice if you can make any sense out of this post.