My friend threatened to endanger herself if I didn’t have sex with her and I panicked and gave in now I feel disgusted
20m and 19f
I know she’s a toxic person and I should have distanced myself from her but she’s very unwell mentally and I felt too guilty abandoning her when she’s at a low point so I stayed friends with her. She was over at my place and randomly talking about how she wanted to get laid and said she was tempted to put herself in a dangerous situation I tried to talk her out of endangering herself and then she told me that she was going to wander around an alley at night drunk in hopes of something happening and when I begged her not to she told me that if I was so against it then I should just hook up with her so she doesn’t.
I want her to get help but she refuses and last time she was forced to get it everything got worse for her and I knew she was serious about doing that so I panicked and we did it. She seemed to enjoy it but I’ve never felt more disgusted with myself. I feel trapped in this friendship because she’s so mentally unstable that leaving her would most likely end with her doing something dangerous to herself and I care about her too much to be what causes it.
This was a line I didn’t think she’d cross and now I don’t know what to do about her….I want her to get better but I know I can’t force it and I’m afraid that if I leave she’ll be hurt. What do I do