u/Direct-Project6019

I've used Google Photos in the past for 5 years. Worked great. But I am not a big fan of the invasive AI features it has these days. Basically most of my videos are highlighted with "key moment" in the scrub bar, and I don't like the idea of AI going through my stuff.

So, I moved to iCloud and synced my whole library there. But here is the problem, while it is great, I own an iPhone, iPad and a Windows laptop. The Windows laptop works fine with iCloud for the most part but its still very restricted, and iCloud Takeout of the photos is a jumbled mess without any metadata.

Now I am reaching a point where I need to pay for the next month, and decide if I am going to stick with Google Photos or iCloud.

I do have backups on multiple HDDs and SSDs, so backup is not a problem. I just need an online cloud storage solution.

Weird title, but the thought genuinely bothers me. I kept giving into the demands, and asks for my ex till the end and did not even realise it. When she left me for someone else, eventually I reflected back and saw myself caving in and giving in every single time and more.

I still love a version of her, but that version is long gone. I fear that if she were to ask me to take her back tomorrow, I would do it in an instant despite of all the hurt and disrespect she has caused me. I am afraid that I will look like a fool again.

I keep seeing posts “They do come back” and such. But the truth is, I don’t want her to come back. I just want her to be happy where ever she is and with whomever she is.

I think my trust issues are too big to ever fix this past relationship. Lack of respect for my ex, being a victim of manipulation and gaslighting by the end of it, I don’t want her back ever. But I will continue loving a version of her who loved me with all her heart at one time. The worst part is, I feel like she will at one point reach out to me because she is not being herself since the breakup (or so I think)

She broke up recently and ended out 4 year long relationship, and 7 years of having known each other. All down the drain. Thousands of pictures on my phone, all feel strange all of a sudden, as if they had become soul less. Screenshots of us smiling while facetiming, gives me a weird feeling in the stomach.

While leaving she said, I controlled her life too much. I didn't let her be, and never allowed her to make decisions for herself. She emotionally cheated on me prior to the breakup for a few months, then she went away. The funny thing is, she never once confronted me about this other guy directly, but dropped subtle hints. I think our relationship owed me proper communication instead of getting blindsided. She kept me on the hook, while she tried this new guy. When everything worked out, she walked away and I was left confused and begged her to talk. Closure came 6 months later after it happened.

Yes, I did too much for her maybe. Always helped her out, had her cry on my shoulders when her family was being abusive verbally and physically. Always helped her navigate around her studies and career because she was always clueless about it and would ask for help. Could never see her cry, so I'd often give in to her demands. Even found myself apologising for the things I had no fault in. At times she found me enough, and the other times she always said I could have done this differently, or that differently, and sometimes I felt like I was never enough. She said we never once talked about our lives together, but whenever we met, she'd never stop glazing over me and always kept taking photos of ourselves and never slowed down to talk. When we talked on the phone, it was like walking on eggshells, you never know what you'll say to her make her cry and you'd have to apologise again.

While the love she gave me at one point was pure and genuine, I feel like, but the last year feels entirely fake and made up when I think about it now.

I am angry at her, and maybe still have no accepted that she has left me for someone else about whom she won't even tell me directly to my face. All the blood, sweat, and efforts gone to waste. Now I am left with tens of gifts that she gave me, and I don't know what to do with them. Probably about 10k photos and videos with her, that I don't know how to react to. The crochet scarf, and a video game figurine all make me feel sick to my stomach. I still love her, but I hate the person she has become. I miss a version of her. If that version of her was here today, she'd have smacked the life out of her current version for having done this, because she always wanted "us" more than anything, and believed in "us" more than I ever could till now.

Now my parents know about it, and hate her equally if not more. I don't blame them either. She probably deserves it, but I've taken stand for her many times in front of my parents that now I feel embarassed and feel like a fool in front of them. Even if she ever comes back in the future, I don't think the damage that she has done can ever be fixed.