u/Direct-Zombie7868

I’m not sure exactly what type of eating disorder I have or if it’s even considered one at all, but my relationship with food isnt very healthy. I cry after eating too much sugar and I have to stifle the urge to cry when I know I’m being bad and I should stop. I try to have healthy alternatives like zero sugar drinks and fruits and protein and fiber and all of that. But at the end of the day when Ive had too much sugar I cry myself to sleep because I just want to be smaller and prettier. I deal with a lot of self hatred and hate towards my body and face especially. I don’t know what to do and this is ruining my life.