u/DirectBullfrog4559

Just hearing all these love stories is so amazing from everyone but bad examples have just been around me too much whenever I make dua or istighfar nothing is happening im just starting to cry so much and I know I’ve sinned and Allah probably looks down on me because of that but I just can’t do this anymore I pray for a righteous husband but my parents don’t allow me there’s no hope I hate it I feel so alone

Hi everyone I’m just a bit tired from everything I’m always the one to worry about others but when I’m stressed or sad nobody recognises me I just feel very alone even with friends or family I wish I had a husband that recognised that instead of ignoring my feelings or just downplaying them I highly doubt there’s anyone there for me? I’ve always been alone alot of the times and the marriages that I have seen have just been horrible there’s no love just abuse and endless duties I don’t see the point of a marriage like that but I feel like it’s an inescapable fate for me I don’t think naseebs or love is real I’ve seen the worst but I just sometimes wish that there’s someone for me that guides & is kind to me but that’s too good to be true though I just feel hopeless

I posted earlier today that I was going through pain and I suspect that I have endometriosis and I am going to the doctor next week and and hour later after I made that post 2 decidual casts came out I think this is because my last period I didn’t get one? This is so weird I’m sick of the “decidual casts are rare” no they’re not I get them every single period since the early months of this year I’m 18 if that means anything maybe hormones I’m just not sure I did take a Photo aswell to show to the doctor possibly (is this serious btw or harmful?) I was vomiting and had severe pain I had to use hot water from the shower to ease my cramps and that’s how the decidual cast came out is this endo?

18F I’m considering getting diagnosed for endometriosis because of the severe nausea and pain I get on my period it’s hard for me to get up from bed and almost every single period I’m getting these things called decidual casts where I have to lay down in the bathtub with the hot water just on my stomach waiting for it to come out I cry and vomit from everything I don’t know what to do I was normal when I was 13-16ish but now it’s just getting worse I’m not on birth control? And the casts usually come out on the first day but I notice the pain goes when the cast goes so I’m not sure what’s wrong with me I’m gonna go to a doctor soon but I just need advice I’m taking ibuprofen maybe that will help (maybe if this is relevant but my mum says that she has cysts in her ovaries that exploded that was causing her mild pain)