u/Direct_Function_8656

I love watching porn and jerking off, and I am not afraid to admit it. God forbid someone says it! All the male self-help cum retention no fap cure your porn addiction rhetoric is becoming tiresome and stale, and it does not apply to gay men anyway.

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Once you have become an addict, there is no true deliverance from the behaviors and practices you develop. At any given moment, you are either addicted to consuming something or addicted to abstaining from something.

This has manifested in my own life through cycles of overeating and starving myself, sloth and overexertion, love and solitude. Substances or practices put in place to overcome one addiction independently become their own addiction, and the original addiction returns as a sort of cure to reset the cycle.

I am addicted to being full, then I am addicted to being empty. I am addicted to love and connection, then I am addicted to independence and loneliness. I am addicted to nicotine, then I am addicted to the caffeine that replaces it.

I am an addict!

Such cycles occur for me on a 5 month - 7 month period, with June and October as points of Major Change.

I wish that I could pour myself out here in detail, given that this is an anonymous forum, but I am restrained by the possibility of being recognized by someone or anyone. So in lieu of exposing the churning, inner turmoil that resides deep within my gut to strangers on the internet, I will summarize.

The past year has culminated in a quarter-life crisis of sorts: within one year my relationships, friendships, familial ties, career, purpose, and dreams have become tattered and bruised and currently rest on unstable ground. Nothing extreme has passed, I have not experienced sudden loss, and I have not personally changed for the worse. In fact, I from 5 years ago would probably be proud of where I am today. Which is why I feel somewhat helpless and defeated that such an ordinary year could bring me to such a place of emotional solitude and general uncertainty.

If such routine, uneventful life can produce my current situation, what will a bad year deliver?

Probably just depressed.

Anyway, please drop artist recs <3

Colman Domingo carried. Lots of plot holes, but overall a satisfying tie-up for the original storyline. People are losing their minds over the Christian overtones, unable to recognize their use as a plot device rather than Levinson evangelizing to the audience.

Thoughts?

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- FUCK OFF

"as a conventionally attractive straight-passing man who speaks without a fagcent, has a big dick, goes to the gym, has a perfect physique, has lots of sex, isn't a slut, is monogamous, hates women, only hangs out with straight men, doesn't drink, doesn't smoke, doesn't use drugs, doesn't have tattoos, doesn't have piercings, doesn't go to clubs, doesn't enjoy "gay" activities, and has a thick, full head of hair, I think..."