Was I assaulted?
I (21F) and my brother (19M) live together with his friend (19F). The friend and I have a flirty past and have even done things together but that was 4 years ago and we’ve both been in relationships since then. But since we started staying together things started getting flirty again and one day while my brother was at work (he doesn’t know about the previous things we did) we had sex. It was okay and I felt fine afterwards. It happened a couple more times after that and after the last time we both agreed to end it. Last night around 7pm I just had the urge to so I texted him and told him what I was feeling and he turned me down and said it wasn’t right, so even though I was disappointed and a little embarrassed to be honest I just let it be. I went to bed that night fried as hell and ended up falling asleep. I was woken up by him around 1am saying my brother had gone out and if the offer still stood then he was down. At that point it had been like 6 hours since I had originally asked and I just wasn’t feeling it anymore. I told him no and just said I didn’t like not knowing where my brother was and that I wouldn’t be able to relax because of it. He said okay and went back to his room so I just went on my phone for a bit and that’s when he texted me saying he wanted me now. I told him no again and used the same reason and tried to fall back asleep. A few minutes later he walks in my room and gets into bed with me and starts kissing my neck and pulling my pants off and saying he knows I want it and I was JUST asking for it and we had JUST done it. He started touching me and yeah it felt nice and everything but I just wasn’t really feeling it anymore. He ends putting it in and starting and even changing the position a couple times. Every time we changed the position it kind of hit me what was happening and I kept telling him no and he told me to stop telling him no (I feel like this was him trying to be sexy? He said he’s used to dominating during sex). I would say no and then he would start and I would moan cause i’m still human and I guess he took that as me liking it and not wanting it to stop when really all I wanted to do was sleep. I know this might seem stupid to some people because I led him on and had asked for it, but something feels different this time. I don’t wanna say I was full on raped but I didn’t walk away from that interaction satisfied or even a little happy I was just confused and empty. I don’t wanna say anything to my friends because as far as they’re concerned I left him in the past. I also just don’t know what to think and just wanted to write it all out.