u/Direct_Sport9131

living was hard before this like jesus fuck i can’t get a break… knowing it genuinely will never end.. i can’t run away from it but i can’t sit in it any longer. i don’t know what to do anymore. it’s just this loop of dissociating while waiting for something that will never be over, to be over; becoming fully conscious again and realizing this then freaking out and dissociating again. i was finally getting better then i get vss. how fucking ironic, i never had a chance, how silly of me to wish and wait for one.