u/Director_Suspicious

Me and her have been dating for 4 months and shes talked about how she loves heartfelt letters and poetry. I had decided to write a letter to her and I want to give it to her but I feel like its too early and I dont know if I should wait until her birthday which is in January to give it to her or some type of other special date like an anniversary. I also just want some feed back because I have a feeling that something is wrong with it. ( Also for context at the end it talks about starting a family and children and we have talked about it before so don't think that it just came out of the blue and being the first time talking about it)

To My Beautiful Girlfriend,

From the day we really started talking I knew there was something special about you. At the time I didn’t know exactly what it was, but my feelings for you were different than anyone else I had ever had. I always felt safe and secure around you, and my mind would go quiet, which was something I wasn’t used to. Normally my head is always switching between a hundred different thoughts and honestly it can be extremely stressful. But after we spent more time together and built something, the only thing on my mind was you.

From the beginning I knew I wanted us to be more because from what I saw you had everything I wanted in a partner. You’re compassionate, intelligent, beautiful, and just an overall amazing person. I really believe you came into my life at a really important time, because I was going through a lot mentally and didn’t really feel like myself. Having someone like you who genuinely supports me made a bigger difference than I can fully explain.

If you hadn’t made the first move, I honestly don’t know where I’d be today, but I’m really grateful every day that you did. Before we started talking I didn’t fully feel alive and it honestly felt like I was just going through life on autopilot. After you came into my life, things started to feel more real again, and I started enjoying life in a way I hadn’t in a while.

You being in my life has made things so much better, and honestly there’s no one else who has ever done that for me. People have usually made things worse or didn’t really understand me, but you’ve always felt different.

Especially with my struggle with my addiction. I dealt with it for years and tried to stop on my own, but having you in my life helped me change how I spent my time and what I focused on. Instead of falling into it, I found myself doing other things and just living differently because you were part of my life. I will always be grateful for that, and for the fact that you genuinely cared instead of brushing it off like it didn’t matter.

When I told you I was on the verge of relapsing and you said you would be pissed at me, that honestly meant a lot to me. It showed me that you actually cared and weren’t just saying things to say them. A lot of people tried to downplay it, but you were one of the only people who actually saw me and took it seriously.

I really do think that we bring out something good in each other. A lot of what we have just feels natural and not forced at all. And even though I sometimes feel weird about certain things, you’ve never made me feel like I have to be someone I’m not. I had a fear that I would always have to hide parts of myself in a relationship, but with you I don’t feel that way.

Something that I feel like I tell you, but not nearly enough or properly, is how much it affects me when I hurt you or make you upset. It really does bother me when I know for a fact that I've hurt you in any way or ruined your mood. It's not because I'm scared of the outcome or consequences of doing it. It's because I genuinely care about you, and you're the last person I would ever want to hurt.

Knowing that I'm the reason you're feeling bad really sticks with me, and I think about it a lot whether it's resolved or not. I understand that I'm not perfect and that I'm going to make mistakes, but whenever I do, I genuinely want to make things right. Seeing you upset, especially when I'm the cause of it, is one of the worst feelings I can experience.

I don’t say this lightly, but I have a really deep love for you. I don’t express everything perfectly, but when I care about someone, I care deeply. And I don’t give that to just anyone.

I want you to know that I’m serious about you in the sense that I don’t really see the point in being in a relationship if I can’t see a real future with that person. And with you, I do see something real. I really enjoy thinking about where things could go for us, and I can imagine us building a life together one day, like moving out and having our own place. Just us. It’s a really comforting thought because I feel like we just fit together in a really natural way.

I also think about a future family sometimes. I’ve always wanted to be a father, and I think you would be an amazing mother just based on how you treat the people you care about. If we ever got to that point, I’d want our kids to grow up in a home full of love, warmth, and honesty. The way you make me feel cared for is something I’d want them to feel too.

I know you’ve worried before about becoming like my mother, and I want you to know I truly don’t see you becoming that way. And even if things ever got hard, I wouldn’t just leave. I would like us to work through things together.

I think this is where I’m going to end this now. I love you so much.

Forever yours,
Carson