Recent life
I think my life is getting better with the effort I’ve put on my academic success, I acquired a chance to travel to Netherlands for 19 days, learning robotics and automation engineering, I even acquired several top places in every mid-term or final exam in my class. But I’m slowly getting bored of what I’m doing, American dream feels aimless but I believe when I made it, everything will change. Let’s talk about why I feel unmotivated and this problem has been strangling in my mind for a very long time, I have to frankly admit that this is just because I’m winning too much too excess. Now I feel like if I don’t have gold medal I will die and depressed by the overcoming and overwhelming voices coming from people surround me, all I could do is studying until I made it to what I promise myself: a well prestigious university that my family can hang it on their mouth talking about it 24/7. But it is stressful, sitting on high expectations will make you fall down with faster acceleration that no one still stands to the last with you. And one thing which stressed me out was the companions I’m going with to Netherlands, they are all talented and have at least one global or domestic robotics competition certificate, but I have non. I should look up to them, keep my pace with them so I don’t get eliminated by the frontier developers . This is my recent experiences. I’m sorry I’m thinking the opposite of the optimistics. I gotta change.