Wishing My Alcoholic Mother Dead
I (23F) am, at best, no contact with my mother (48), who has been an alcoholic since she got gastric bypass surgery in 2009. My sparkling mother with organs made out of cement, has been to 40 plus rehabs and detoxes (including dual diagnosis), and I believe she will never get better. Her father (79M), my grandfather, has put me in charge of all of his assets, and when he became confused, made me durable POA. He filed a restraining order against her after I called APS. She has been out of the house, and he has since moved to Assisted Living for early-stage Lewy Body Dementia, but she continues to cause problems from elsewhere. Confabulates and genuinely believes she is taking care of things and believes she is the victim because "My daughter made me homeless" and "My family has abandoned me." I am handling her job to care for her elderly parents, and have been since I turned 18, and was basically my younger brother's mother. God forgive me, but my life would become so much easier if she would just die, because she causes nothing but problems. I don't understand how she is still alive, when she drinks the way she does with Gastric Bypass. Alanon helps, and I have been in the program since I was 12, but I am at my wits end. I feel so guilty for thinking like this.