u/Disastrous-Cat-2398

rent stuff our boss is amazing he’s been amazing to me and my stomach issues and has tried to be helpful anyway he could work wise and I worked part time from 16ish to 19ish but I would always switch days around or wasn’t able to show up because my ibs-c would pop up I had one really good year then my ibsc was like fuck you ima switch up and make it worse last year there started missing a bunch of days so they let me go to figure it out forward a few years later the boss we will call him wants to know if I want to come back so I say yes obviously wanted to make money and help out so I wouldn’t feel like a burden to my mom and dad 3 weeks I lasted before my stomach once again ruined everything missed my 2nd week because of toe infection then 3 week missed Thursday and Friday because of ibsc then today texted my boss I’m gonna have to quit and I explained why and stuff then few hrs later my dad texts my mom saying to shut my phone off and the internet. Sorry if this is kinda hard to read I’m not good at putting stuff into words. New part i guess you could say I’ve always had ibsc it ruined my school life so I got homeschooled now I find it hard to talk to people including family. Explaining how bad it hurts. When my ibsc activates or whatever it feels like I’m getting stabbed in the stomach I’ll sit on the toilet for literally hrs or walk around my kitchen to get stuff moving and whenever i actually start to shit it’s hard as a rock for a bit then water like while all this is happening I’m having awful acid reflux I just say I’m throwing up because of how much there is but it’s awful then when it’s all said and done the next day I feel like I’m at death’s door not physically but mentally if that makes sense it’s like I have food poisoning in a way but also not. Once again I’m sorry if this makes no sense or seems lout of order first time making a post or anything like this and like I said I have a awful time putting stuff into words. Top of post kinda fd because when I hit copy it didn’t work or whatever. Would love some advice or at least just knowing I’m not the only one also a big thing is stress and anxiety trigger it whenever i feel like shit I start to think is this gonna last through whatever I’m doing for example work wake up feeling like crap start to think is it gonna be like this the whole day keep in mind work outside anyway think gonna sta like this or get worse so I get anxiety about so it makes it worse then i keep thinking it making it worse yet again and again to the point the pain gets so bad i start thinking if it would be better to just not be alive wouldn’t kill my self because don’t want to put my mom mf some other people through that