how would you feel if you got this message?
i am not looking for a response, i just want to send a final severing message for me. i acted out of anger and hurt that night and i realized you are right. it is no longer my business whatever it is you indulge in, i’m sorry i pushed your boundaries. funnily enough this was exactly what i needed to be firm in my resolve. i just wanted to say, for every bad thing we did to each other, you were important in the process of me becoming an adult and a woman. and despite all the hurt, since our break up, i have felt more like myself than i’ve felt in a long time and i’m happy. we were never going to work; at the end of the day we weren’t cut from the same cloth, my priorities were never going to be yours and vice versa. i put too many expectations on you for a young person with little experience of the world and like wise you to me and god knows the mistakes we made along the way. regardless, i’m glad we had the time we did because i know now that i truly don’t want it for myself anymore. i deserve more, and one day i hope i’ll be able to wish you the same. i think the hardest thing for me to accept was that i kept trying to love you into becoming someone who could meet me where i was, and that was unfair to both of us. i know now that wounds we caused each other just don’t fade. i’m apologetic for every time i wasn’t the partner i should’ve been. i’m no longer angry you weren’t either and i’m glad we were happy and in real love for a time. i have a bright and colorful life ahead of me, i won’t look back or hold out hope for you anymore, i wasn’t sure of it before but i am now. i’ve outgrown you, you are not the sun, and i’m satisfied that i finally know that. i’ll leave the chat for tonight then i’m blocking your number after this, i don’t want a door back. good luck.