u/Disastrous-Lie-6728

I haven’t self harmed since I was pregnant 3 years ago wasn’t my brightest moment but I was in a abusive relationship and couldn’t leave recently I started lithium and I like how I feel but I have been self harming I also want to a crave it I look for any excuses I can to harm and I wish I didn’t I have two kids I was doing so good but I don’t know my dad died in December and I have been spiraling
I have asked for help but I feel like no one cares and I’m burden and that’s why no one has helped I got on lithium to help and even upped my seroquel what do I do? Try more medicine stop my meds I just don’t want my boyfriend to leave me because I don’t wanna stop self harming btw I’m one 900 mg lithium and 100 mg seroquel I do smoke weed and have been told to stop but I’m too scared I have been self medicating since I was 15 any advice is welcome