Grades tanked and lost my job because of depression. Not sure what to do (premed)
I want to start by saying I don’t use reddit much so if there’s some etiquette or rules I should know, and this post isnt following them, please let me know.
My grades tanked this semester and yes I took some hard classes, but the work was doable and I know I was capable. I just couldn’t make myself do anything.
I sat down to study and just stared at my laptop for before giving up before I even began. I didn’t even feel guilty or bad about it, I honestly just stopped caring at all. I missed deadlines for stuff I could have done in 30 minutes. I slept through classes and skipped the ones I was awake for. Then the work piled up and when I got a small burst of motivation it felt impossible, so I avoided it, and it just kept going.
I used to actually care about school, and I’m an extremely goal driven person in general. Thankfully my GPA could take the hit and even with Cs(god bless grade inflation) this semester I’m still holding a 3.6. I know this is great, but as a premed who hopes to become a surgeon without any connections or anything, as well as anxiety, I don’t know if it’ll cut it at the schools I’m aiming for. Honestly, I don't even know if I want to dig myself out of this hole.
I know I'm burnt out and depressed. I've been dealing with this for a while, but knowing that doesn't fix anything.
I dont have anyone to talk to about this and I dont have any experience dealing with depression/mental health in general. Honestly just posting this because fuck it why not, maybe someone out there has gone through this too and has some magic fix. I know it wont be that easy but its better than doing nothing yk?
Has anyone been through this and climbed out? Did you take a semester off, talk to a dean, just push through? I'm not looking for empty reassurance, I just want to hear what actually helped and actual advice. Thinking about going to another career path honestly, idek if it’s worth this shit
Thanks for reading.