I want to write a memoir or something of that sorts, about my life and experiences I’ve lived to further my recovery.
For some context I’m 20F I was diagnosed with
C-PTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)at the age of 18. I experienced a lot of mental abuse from a quite young age and have had to say the least some interesting ways to cope. Physical abuse wasn’t often but it has happened. Most of the things I remember that stuck seem like mental torture to me now.
Since my diagnosis I’ve felt erm, odd, maybe out of place, there’s so many things that went into the diagnosis and treatment as well.(Which I have really only been receptive to therapy). I was offered prescriptions but knew from the get go there’s no way I’d remember to take it on time every day. Let alone at least 3x a week. I asked my therapist if there is any physical pen and paper materials I can work with to help myself and she ordered me a book for ptsd.
I have since sat on the workbook for almost a year now, I don’t know why I did other than to this very day I’m still experiencing traumatic incidents from my family. I do intend to work in the book here soon. What stopped me before was, I was living directly in the household where the chaos was unfurling.
I hope that as I work through with the work book and my notes I’m going to take I can my notes and make them into something someone else can read to understand why I am the way I am. The part where I am reaching out to yall for is… where do I start…
I started a page in my book but I don’t want to mess it up so I moved on to a note book but I’m left handed and it keeps hurting my hand since I broke my pinky during a flashback… I’m really good at typing so I’m buying a computer today to hopefully get some literal structure to work with. I don’t like to use phones and tablets because it relies more on my whole hand to hold them steady and the keyboards, don’t even get me started.
I use Google Docs for most of my documenting things but I’m open to other platforms.
I mainly want to understand what parts of my story the readers will be caught on and how to guide one part of my story to another. If you’ve read this far you must see I try my hardest to be as grammatical as possible. I also have dyslexia and an astigmatism, it can make reading difficult at times. I want it to encourage others to read my story and be moved, feel like they are in the story as well.
If you took the time to read I really appreciate you. (Some of the topics in the future could be sensitive!)