So I started HRT despite every fiber in my brain screaming at me not to, like a week ago now. And I did so only because I "had to"... I told myself if I don't feel anything different after like 2 weeks, there isn't a point in me containing... Mostly because I still am scared to death to look trans (of becoming a man with breasts😭).
So I told myself I could "soldier through" if I got the fabled "mental changes"... "Fog lifting"... W/e you wanna call it, because who I've experienced gender envy for most of my life and have had a "constant light depression", I don't think I could survive not becoming passing if there wasn't other benefits.
>!And no I can't actually experience gender euphoria without the "self-passing" aspect since everything I wanna do is unbearably dysphoria inducing due to how masculine I am... Everything is reliant on this, so if nothing good comes from HRT apart from an unknown amount of changes (which might never be enough)... I might have to just stop.!<
So if you experienced mental changes, how long did it take?
Did it come before or after breast growth sensations?
What hrt regiment were/are you on? (I'm on estrodil gel and CPA)