Hey bulls,
I have been sitting on this for about a week trying to gain some perspective on things but I keep coming to the same unfortunate conclusion so I want to get some other bull's perspectives. This might be long.
Okay, so last year I started feeling a little funny about most of my friendships and decided to take a step back. Several people have been reaching out to me but I either make excuses or ghost (not defending my actions here). The friendships didn't feel reciprocal and I was basically ending them. However, once taurus season started, I've been in a great mood and decided to reach out to them and host a small get together. I have been friends with everyone for years and they all know each other but I would say they all more so communicate with me than each other (I think - because they haven't seen each other since the last thing I hosted.)
People there include: me, May Taurus, 1 Nov Sag, 1 Dec Sag, 1 Feb Aqua, 1 Nov Scorpio, 1 Aug Leo, 1 Sept Libra, 1 June Gemini, 1 July Cancer.
We're all having a good time and then the Scorpio ask me how's my dating life going and I tell them that I am back dating my ex and I am in loveee lol.
Then everyone basically turned on me it feels like and now I want to say the vibe of everyone and what they said but what they have going on too.
Scorpio who asked seemed disgusted and was like when will I ever learn? She apologized but then said she felt bad for me. The aqua says don't feel bad for her she's going to learn the hard way. The Leo is saying why it could never be her and Gemini is laughing. Cancer is feeling bad for me and rubbing my back but I was not feeling bad I was trying to control my anger. I don't remember what the sags said but they were basically trying to counsel me about my ex as if I was so naive I was missing something.
I don't get it guys. What's so wrong with being in love? Why is everyone treating me like I'm a dummy for liking and loving the guy I am with? I wouldn't be with him if I didn't feel this way or am I missing something? I was asking them this but they were acting like I was such an idiot and it's making me angry even thinking about it.
To summarize - we dated for 5 months, he ended things abruptly and really hurt my heart, I cried about it for weeks, healed, and moved on and dated someone else. I am pretty sure he got back with his ex. I ended things with the guy I was seeing; he came back, apologized sincerely, we got back together. He's been great since and I don't know if he'll stay like this but so far, he's built me a dog house, fixed my roof, changed my oil, and been very loving and responsive - I am totally smitten and it feels like my friends are NOT happy for me and the conclusion I got is maybe they're jealous? They were bonding laughing at me basically.
The reasons the signs get brought into this is because they all sound like what I hear about taurus in the horoscopes - that we stay too long and that we get abused and I felt like I was being gaslit. And maybe I am missing something here. But basically, I don't feel like I go through even a 10th of what my friends go through but I'm always seen as the butt of the joke or the one getting put through it. The Aquarius even said I have the worst luck with men - she didn't get her first relationship until after 40 and she practically had to bribe that man but I have the worst luck? Guys help me understand?! I bite my tongue because if I throw in their face what they have going on, it's really mean but they want to treat me like I'm a dummy so I kind of want to be mean.
ETA - It's less about the guy and more about me feeling like my friends are ganging up on me to make me feel stupid and silly even though none of us are in perfect relationships; it feels like I'm the one that gets made fun of.
ETA 2 - I took out the shade I had for each friend/sign because its unnecessary - but suffice it to say, we are all dealing with imperfect men but I feel like they kind of gang up on me and make fun of me and act like I am so naive. It feels like they read my taurus groundedness as stupidity and it pisses me off lol. Part of me feels like it's because they all lie about what they're willing to take and then take way more dirt behind the scenes while I wear my heart on my sleeve. But I'm a bull and very resilient - I am not scared of love lol.
ETA 3 - I was being defensive in this post and that night with my friends. But for example, I got a $3,500 quote to fix my roof, he offered to do it for me and only made me get the nails (because I offered) plus the other things he's done since we got back together. They were saying that that's not a big deal and doesn't mean anything and I just don't think that's true. I don't think it means we're destined to be together forever, but it means SOMETHING at least to me. Maybe I'm alone there. That's what I meant when I said it feels like they're trying to gaslight me lol.