u/DisastrousLobster666

I seriously just don’t want to be alive anymore, I hate my life and I don’t see it ever changing or getting better. I have had one or two good years were my depression was manageable and I was actually able to live a life but now those memories are so distant and so few compared to just wasting my life that it feels more like a sick joke and was never actually my life. part of me hates my family because it’s the only reason why I am still alive is because I know it would destroy my family and probably cause my father to kill himself too but at the same time I just DONT WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE.