Want it to end so I can have my new start
We have started the process of divorce. Not much to do yet while we go through the cooling off period. At first I struggled with the decision but week after week I can see more and more that its the right decision. She just doesnt care. She never cared about me or my mental health. Always isolating herself from me and the kids, always on her phone. I try and do things with the kids like take them out to do things but she hardly does anything with them. I set rules and boundaries about screen time or bed time etc, but she never respects them. Makes me feel like the bad guy to them.
Communication has broken down now and there's an atmosphere developing. I am starting to look forward to being properly separated so I can begin to move on, but theres still things that we need to discuss. Its a struggle to talk to her though because she gets super defensive, starts saying things are none of my business and generally likes to talk to me like Im an idiot. It feels pretty toxic. Ive actually started considering whether this qualifies as abusive.
We've not told the kids yet. We're probably waiting for the perfect moment that will never happen, but its a conversation Im not looking forward to. My parents are getting frustrated and snippy / taking shots at me about this so Im getting grief from all sides. Yeah I get it we need to have the talk and soon, but on our terms not theirs.
Just needed to rant. I hope it gets better and I cant wait to get out!