u/DisastrousPirate69

I'm honestly not too sure if I'm making something out of nothing. This has been happening more frequently and it's starting to bother me. My good friend of multiple years has a bad habit. She'll plan things with me, and then invite me with those same things with other people as a "if you want to come" or "if you feel like joining". For example, I was getting into Chess and mentioned to her that I would love to go to a beginners chess club with her. She said she'd love to, I looked into possible options, but nothing was decided firmly as she didn't know when she' be free. Then the next week, she messaged me saying that she was going with a work friend to a chess club that night as I could come if I wanted. Yesterday, I mentioned I really wanted to do a half marathon, she was keen, I looked at possible options for an hour and told them about it on the phone. Narrowed it down to two, but it gotblate so she said she'd decide later. I just got a message that she was at the pub with her friend and decided to run a half marathon with her friend and if I wanted to join. Writing it out I feel silly, because I recognise that she is still inviting me. But I feel hurt because it makes me feel like a second option, and that the effort I make to suggest and research isn't worth much. Like an idea generator but not a participant lol. I want to be immature and air her, but I know I should communicate properly. How would you suggest I do this? Thanks all!