u/Disastrous_Benefit80

Im trying to understand what happened to me but I don't know how to process it. I was somewhere between 6-10 when my brother who is a couple years older than me tried to convince me that his "thing" was a lollipop while we were playing hide and seek in the dark and also showed me how to masterbate and showed me porn. How do I move on from that...

How do I talk about my assault when I feel guilty. How do I move on from that when its effected every aspect of my life. From being hypersexual to being too scared to look someone in the eyes. Is it my fault? Will my family blame me or think im filthy? I was young I didnt understand or even know what these things were until he showed me. I didnt want to.....