Hi! My name is Harry - i am 42 years old. I am a divorcee who has a daughter. I have never seen my daughter since she was 3 month old (now she is 6 yrs old).
I met this beautiful girl online, who was much younger than me (12 years of age difference). What started as a normal friendship, soon turned into a romantic relationship. She is from U.S., and I am residing in India since last 10 years. (Long story). We both fell for each other. She being Indian too, visited me last year.
She is a girl, who just had one relationship in her life - never had sex with anyone. She was all about emotions and being feminine. She came over - we met the first time. I remember driving at 2 AM to her airbnb, and surprised her to see her one day prior. She very reluctantly came down. She was extremely anxious and nervous. She came and sat in the back seat of my car - kept on saying "i cant believe i am seeing u" for like million times. She came and sat next to me, with a promise that i will keep my eyes closed and wont look at her. (She was shy as hell).
That happened, i just spent 15 mins with her. While my eyes closed, she kissed me and ran upstairs to her airbnb.
This was my first meet with this beautiful girl. It started from I LOVE YOU to I HOPE YOU DIE.
2 years later in life - i messed everything up bad. I feel shattered as of today. I will pour my heart out if i find someone who is willing to listen to my story. I am new to this platform. I don't know if it will only reach deaf ears.