I just turned 14 in February. I don’t have any friends, a girlfriend, or much of a social life—just me and my video games.
Last year, I developed really severe social anxiety. It’s gotten to the point where I have to stay in ISS at school. I can’t go outside or even go to my dad’s house because being away from my mom causes intense panic attacks.
Most days, I don’t get out of bed or off the couch. I just sit there playing video games all day without interacting with anyone. I don’t clean, my hygiene is bad, and I can’t sleep properly. Everything feels terrible.
It all seems almost unfixable, and I don’t know how to keep pushing forward. Sometimes it feels like I’m going to be stuck living like this forever.
I wish I could be like the popular Chads. They can do whatever they want and still have friends or even a girlfriend. I wish I could walk through the halls without feeling like people are laughing at me.
I feel like I’m stuck and can’t improve. I’m only 5’6, very skinny, and I don’t feel confident in how I look. People make fun of me for not going out and for spending all my time gaming, but it’s the only thing that gives me some comfort.
If anyone has advice on how I can improve any of this, I’d really appreciate it.