L: 8.0, R: 8.0, W: 7.0... but Speaking 5.5 for the 3rd time. I’m completely losing my mind. Laugh at me if you want.
I just got my results and I am completely shattered. I literally have zero will left to fight this stupid test.
My scores are Listening: 8.0, Reading: 8.0, Writing: 7.0... but my Speaking is stuck at 5.5. And the worst part? This is my THIRD time getting a 5.5 in Speaking.
I don't understand what I’m doing wrong anymore. I practiced so hard. I talked to myself every single day. I actively tried to use advanced vocabulary and idioms to show off my lexical resource. I spoke fluently without long pauses. But somehow, it always ends up at 5.5.
Is it because I’m a hardcore introvert? I don’t have a speaking partner, so I’ve only ever practiced by myself in my room. Does that really drag my score down this much?
Honestly, just staring at my own scorecard makes me feel even more depressed and miserable. Seeing those 8s and that 7 right next to a 5.5 feels like a cruel joke. And please don't even tell me to apply for a remark (EOR). I've submitted a remark before and the score didn't even go up. It feels completely pointless.
Go ahead and laugh at me. It’s pathetic to have a 7.0 in academic writing but a 5.5 in speaking. I just wanted to vent because I feel absolutely hopeless, defeated, and emotionally drained. I don’t even know what to do with my life right now.