Quitting a game I loved forever
I quit chess forever.
I've played nearly 2000 rapid games online in chess.com. Played in a single tournament (finished 2.5/5 only but its relavant). My peak was 1360.
My bf has been playing chess as a kid, but very casually. Played on the weekends with his dad in the weekends since he was a kid and a match a week the chess club for 3 or so years.(His Dad is also not a serious player like him)
I've dedicated, all though not much, but still some serious effort in learning and studying theory. (Though I didn't have much rss, only Liches n the internet I still made full use of it all).
I'm not even nearly as good as him. I've been playing some 3-4 openings as B&W for those 2k games and he navigated those positions with such ease(accuracy 90+). I don't know how he developed such an understanding of the game with such casual play(Don't even have an elo, just played with his dad and 150+ games at his clubs). He tells me to just 'feel' the board. He has developed an intuition for the game in less than a thousand matches(he said a thousand matches is a lot) that allows him to play with 95-99% accuracy against me.
I review my games after I play them. Almost everytime. I do puzzles. I learned opening theory.
I realised chess is not for me. Its frustrating to see that people like him climbed the ladder with such ease and such little effort. Either he's gifted or im not cut out for it. Either way I don't even want to touch the board now.
Edit : Those who're saying to not take it seriously. It kind of is serious. I took the game somewhat seriously and hoped to get better. It mattered to me and exactly is the reason I'm being 'dramatic' about it.