u/DisciplineCreepy2721

So I know I really fucked up. There’s this guy I’ve known since I think 2022-23 around that time frame. We’ve been fwb on and off since then. I caught hsv2 in 2025 from someone that I was seeing regularly cause I wasn’t talking to the other guy anymore and I had cut him off a decent amount of time. Long story short me and the first guy reconnected recently and I got hella caught up in the moment and I meant to tell him I caught hsv2 when we were talking. I ended up giving him head in his car he kept trying to have sex but I kept saying no. Fast forward to today and I tell him what I should’ve told him the minute we reconnected again. He’s in shambles and I feel awful cause I didn’t tell him as soon as I should’ve. He’s talking about if he has it he’s gonna off himself. He never touches anyone cause he’s picky and all this stuff. And he was making me feel like bad cause he did say he has oral herpes when he’s sick. Idk he made me feel like a walking virus which so many people have made me feel like. I feel awful for not telling him and I take responsibility for that cause now he’s freaking out. I really didn’t mean to not tell him I just really missed him and I got caught up when he wanted me to go down on him. I feel like the shittest person in the world and he keeps just saying he doesn’t know what he’s gonna do if he’s positive for the other type of herpes. Now I’m just sad and frustrated and I told him to lmk asap about his results and to do a full panel. I know it’ll be over after that cause it always is for me. I just hope I didn’t give him shit cause now I feel like offing myself