I RUINED cycling for myself by trying to get better...
I need to tell someone this because I think I accidentally made cycling way less fun for myself for a while.
When I first started riding more, I was just happy to be outside and moving. Like I would ride for 30 minutes or an hour and come back feeling good because I did something, which was honestly the whole point.
Then I started trying to “get better” and that is where everything got weird.
I downloaded the big apps everyone uses to track rides and at first it was cool seeing the miles and speed and all that, but then every ride started feeling like a test I was either passing or failing. If my average speed was slower, the ride felt bad. If someone else had a better ride, I felt behind. If I took an easy day, it felt like I was being lazy even though I was literally still riding a bike.
The stupid part is the apps were not even doing anything wrong, I was just using them in the worst way possible. They showed me stats, but they did not really tell me what to do next, so I just kept guessing and turning every ride into some random attempt to prove I was improving.
One of the guys I ride with kept telling me I needed more structure and not just more numbers, and he mentioned a few simpler coaching style apps like Vali and stuff like that where the point is more following a plan instead of just staring at stats after the ride. I kind of ignored it because I thought I could figure it out myself.
I could not figure it out myself.
What actually happened is I started riding harder when I should have gone easier, comparing rides that should not even be compared, and making myself annoyed at a hobby I literally started because it was supposed to make me feel better.
Eventually I had to stop treating every ride like a performance review and just go back to riding with a real plan and a little less ego.
Anyway I did not quit cycling, but it is actually insane how fast “I want to get better” can turn into “why am I mad at a bicycle app on a Tuesday.”