OCD is ruining my relationship
My (21f) bf (22m) and i have been together 6 months now. He’s known about my OCD the whole time and has been very accepting and accommodating. He’s never once gotten mad at me for my thoughts or spirals and has the most patience i’ve ever seen.
The problem is me, because despite how he’s not given me any reason to worry the OCD just keeps on OCDing. I get stuck in a spiral of overthinking like this:
- The initial thing that upset me (for no reason usually).
- I get more upset because the thing that i’m upset about is so pointless.
- I start to worry that he’s going to get annoyed because I’m upset over nothing.
- I convince myself that he is annoyed.
- I start to feel hopeless like i’m watching a fire that i started burn down my house (our relationship).
- I just completely disconnect from myself, like i’m not even in control anymore
And it just keeps going. Yet the entire time he’s so patient and caring even though he doesn’t understand what’s happening in my head.
I don’t know what to do to stop it and even though I have no reason to truly believe that it’s ruining us, i can’t help but worry.