life finally gave me something to cry about
I've had depression for as long as I can remember. Life slowly got better at some point and now I'm at uni, about to turn twenty next month. However, living in a one-bedroom apartment in a bigger city got me struggling on a bigger scale than before. Ridiculous, 'cause objectively my life wasn't half bad. And then, just today, about two hours ago, life finally gave me something to cry about. My dear mom whom I look alike got diagnosed with breast cancer. The stage and severity of it, we don't know yet. A bit of researching told me breast cancer is usually treatable, but that didn't help me feel any better. Here's the thing: She has mentioned, many times, clearly, that she doesn’t want to fight it. That she'd consider it maybe if it hasn't been too far down the road. She's been depressed almost all her life as well; life hasn't been easy for her. Do I just need to let her go like this? Is it too childlike and selfish if I don't want her to leave me? She's only forty-eight; My younger sister is still eighteen, in high-school. I was finally getting my mother's love I've wished for my entire childhood. Honestly, this seems like the perfect opportunity for me to stop and let go of everything. Pathetic, I know. Poor mom, her daughters are probably why she got cancer in the first place.