So it’s taken me until 40 years old, a divorce and another relationship break up after that, to finally give in and try meds.
I’ve honestly never been so far into a hole that I couldn’t get out of to the point I wanted to end my life on Sunday. I managed to get through the day and this morning I went to my GP. She told me I was doing everything right, counselling, exercise, going to work and keeping routine etc. But she wanted me on meds as the final tool. She said you’ve nothing left to lose by trying them.
First day today and within 45 minutes I was so unbelievably tired, then within 2 hours I felt sick, then I could barely function I felt so numb.
Tonight I’ve just felt nothing until a little while ago and I just sobbed relentlessly for about 30 minutes until now when I decided I’d try and distract myself by coming on here and writing something.
I guess I’m just looking for a bit of support.