I feel Like I am going Crazy.
I feel like no matter how much I try to get better I fall back on the worst parts of me. I can't remember when I was me and I mean truly me. I mean I know I was always a little more sad, felt a lil more, but this feeling feels like it keeps growing and I can't bare it. I have no real reason to feel this sad I have so much but I don't like me. I feel like I have change so much and while some of it was good I want parts of me back. I am just venting at this point but I am tired. I don't know who I am and that drives me crazy. I just want more and I know it's selfish and jealousy is ugly but idk. I think I am depressed and lmk if this is normal but I feel like I have been consumed and have been half drowning and swimming. I think I have gotten used to being depressed and hating who I am that I can't stop. I wanna stop and be better. Does anyone have tips? I Can't keep being ok one day and feeling better of dead the next day.