My CPTSD caused a form of arrested development. I had terrible grades in high school because I was still living in an abusive environment. My sexual assault happened at a very young age and continued over a long period, alongside other issues like sibling abuse and parental abandonment. I also left my religion, and my parents would disown me if they ever found out.
But the worst thing that still haunts me is the way I acted in middle and high school. I didn't care at all, and my peers were more mature than I was. It got so bad that one peer told me my other classmates thought I had a disability. I graduated in 2024, and I feel like I just "gained consciousness." I am turning my life around, but those embarrassing moments keep circling in my head. I know everyone is a hypocrite and a loser in their own way, but what do I do to stop having these flashbacks? I know there is no cure, but I wish there was. Will people remember me ? Also if I give life one last try will it works out.