[33F] = me and [38M] him.. now over I guess ?
I just hate the emptiness after situationships particularly as I've had two big friendship breakups over the past two years (needed to happen but still). I hate the ambiguous endings. Like do I delete his number? I asked did he want to be friends without intimacy as it was effecting me too much. He hasn't responded and its been nearly a week. I wonder did I ruin it as I felt like he was being more distant and I felt that whenever I tried to initiate plans he's take ages to respond or not respond directly, it was always me driving to see him (about 30 mins) and he would usually make plans at the last minute after the 'honeymoon phase' of the first few weeks. It lasted about 8 months casually in total. It did provide me with a lot of comfort hence why I don't want to completely let go but I think I'm gonna become celibate now cos I am too tired to go on the apps and start this whole cycle again. Also, he acted like I was being strange kinda for wanting to make plans in advance. He never really admitted it was a situationship and said it was a connection. It didn't have boundaries that was the issue but as long as I stay polite and go along with it, then it would last... But I sent a long-ish message then deleted it after realising I still wanted to know him, then asked to be friends instead, he replied saying he was busy at work and might reply, he didn't that was a week ago. Any thoughts? Please be kind, I'm lonely af