I (F23) am regretting leaving my M27 ex, now dating M33. any advice?
previously i posted on here about my ex being reluctant to move in with me and us not having shared values involving sex drive, having kids, etc. i ended up leaving him and we were no contact for a while. i very stupidly starting dating a coworker and wanted it to be casual even though my intentions are to find a life partner. things started getting serious way too fast and i ended up moving in as my lease was ending. it has been a very… tumultuous relationship. i was very excited in the beginning and shortly realized this man very much needed many things sorted out in his life. i spoke to my sister(27) about the relationship and our issues and she forced me to move out essentially because she was worried about my safety but i made the decision to rekindle with M33. i regret that. i lost my friends and my sister will barely talk to me because of it. i’m dirt broke because of my now boyfriend and having to pick up the slack for his shortcomings. long story short i miss my ex and how i was cherished then and i don’t feel like i love my current partner. i miss the devotion M27 had for me even through his struggles with depression but on the same hand if he was truly devoted he wouldn’t have let me down. I feel aimless and stuck and just need some advice i guess. thanks in advance.
tldr: my ex(M27) couldn’t commit to a future with me, i left, started dating partner(M33) and moved in, lost my friends and family due to this relationship, miss my ex, lowkey resent my partner, and i am feeling stupid. help?