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Today was my youngest’s last day of high school (graduation is in 10 days) and apparently I am not okay??

I’m so proud, don’t get me wrong. But also… why was I standing in the kitchen getting emotional over absolutely nothing today?

This is my last baby, and it’s hitting me that all my regular “mom duties” are basically wrapping up. No more school routines, no more being needed in that same everyday way.

And now I’m sitting here like… so what am I supposed to be doing next?

Because being a mom has been 90% of who I am or what I did for 20 years.

It’s not the first time I’ve thought of this, but I still have no answers. I’m very much in my feelings right now.

I really wish I liked working out, but I just… don’t.

I want to be one of those people who enjoys going to the gym and treats it like peaceful “me time,” but, I hate it. I’ve been doing dance workouts at home, and they’ve actually helped me lose a good amount of weight. I still want to lose about 40 more pounds, though, and I know adding in some weight training would probably make a big difference.

Especially at my age (I’m 48, almost 49), I know muscle mass becomes even more important. But the reality is, every time I think about joining a gym, I already know I won’t go. It’s always been a struggle for me.

I don’t really know why it’s so hard for me to stick with it, even when I know it would help.

Does anyone else feel like this? Like you want to be a gym person,, but know it will never happen?