u/DiziYun

(I guess this means I’ve probably been outed to a lot more people than I thought…
Trigger warning for transphobia. I’d like to hear some outside perspectives if possible.)

Hey deadname,

I've been thinking about you and feel like I should write to you. No one has asked me to write to you.

I guess I want to encourage you to think more deeply about the life you are headed toward.

A life without little daughters bringing you flowers. A life without sons showing you their latest fort. A life without a honorable young man by your side doing life with you. A life without purpose and point.

Your nieces and nephews, though they love you, will no longer be comfortable with their Auntie deadname.
Your brothers and sisters won't either.

What you will get - A life spent with people who think more about themselves and their phones, than you. A life spent with people who encourage you to hate those who disagree with you. A life spent talking more with people online than in person. A life with fleeting pleasures and no lasting peace.

A life being unfeminine and unattractive.
A life of darkness and despair. And worst of all, it will never be enough.
Your flesh can’t be satisfied. Right now it's not too late, but it will be-

So ask yourself, is it really what you want? In this life, you have until you die to repent of your rebellion against your Creator.

I sincerely pray you will. God does not promise you a husband and children, BUT the longer you take hormone therapy the further away you are from any chance of a life with children and a loving husband.

Take a couple months off your phone, a couple months away from your friends. Tell them you need some time to rethink your decisions, if they love you even a little bit, they will give you some space. And then decide.

You might be surprised.

Also I want to encourage you that a life spent with Christ is not bondage as it may seem. You will never be perfect, deadname, you may even struggle with some of the same sins you’ve been indulging, but that's okay.

Christ was perfect for you, and died so you
can live. Not a life of sexual pleasures and selfish choices. But a life of freedom and joy serving others the one who made you!

With love, cousin’s name

Somebody used he/him pronouns for me today!! It’s the first time someone has used them without me asking first.

Been on t since the end of February and I’m thrilled with the results so far.

My voice has noticeably changed, I’ve gained nearly 20 pounds, and my mental health is soooo much better.

Now, if I can just somehow work up the motivation to work out consistently…

I was talking to my dad today. I’ve posted about his transphobic shenanigans here before.

He is an odd sort of conspiracy theorist right-wing Christian nutjob.

All my childhood I was taught that when I grew up, I had two options. Become a stay-at-home mother in a traditional, Christian household, or remain celibate and become a missionary.

The church I was raised in makes one thing very, very clear, and it’s that having as many children as possible, as long as possible, is the best and most happy way of living.

Divorce? Wrong. Abortion? The worst sin a human can commit. Birth control? Against god’s will. Masturbation? The devil’s temptation.

The thing is, we were talking about ticks. Specifically why I dislike them, and it got around to Lyme’s disease.

So my dad thinks that Covid/covid vaccines and Lyme’s disease were invented to reduce the population.

That there’s this massive evil conspiracy.

I sort of ended the conversation there, but I can say with 80% confidence that he would say similar things about trans people.

It’s a conspiracy to reduce the population and lure people into sin.

I don’t understand why he’s so dang obsessed with overflowing the earth with humans. I don’t understand why he thinks the rich elites would want less and not more people to suck the money out of.

I don’t understand why he expects all women to submit to birthing 10 children like cattle.

I don’t understand why one depressed autistic person being a trans man who doesn’t want kids is the end of the world.

I don’t understand this man or anyone like him.

Why are they like this? How do you get through to someone like that? Is there literally anything that can be done?