I want to look like a girl, not be.
In short: I want to be perceived as a girl even if I idetify myself as a guy to be judged less.
Since I don't appreciate the stares. I don't want to be seen by strangers as a femboy. I want them to think I'm an ordinary girl so that they go on with their lives.
But I'm not trans. I consider myself a femboy, I just want people who don't know me to look at me and say I'm a girl so that they don't judge me.
I'm socially loud and I like to yap, but when I use my super deep voice I just feel bad for using it cause it furthermore proves to them I'm a guy. And I am! Stop judging me for wanting to go out in a skirt and feel cute ughhh.
My question: am I alone with my thoughts? How do you handle publicly showing yourself off as a guy but expressing your femininity? I feel awkward doing that.