Horrible regret
Hello everyone, this is driving me crazy and I have no one to talk to about it…. “A person” got his baby boy as a puppy when he was 2 months old … he was his world … he took him everywhere , in the woods , on the boat , to the beach … running off leash in woods trails 3 times a day until his death. People would and still would call him “ the world’s best dog dad “ because of all the amazing places he took him…. The issue that is eating him away daily since his death is that when he was 5 years old “a person” got into hardcore addiction… this never changed “ this persons” love for their dog but this person had days where he was so intoxicated he couldn’t even take him for a walk or do the fun things he’s so used to instead he ignored his dog all day … still fed him and took him outside to go to the bathroom but totally distant and not in his right mind … the dog would sleep all day visibly depressed … this would happen only 1 time a week so he would see him normal 6 days a week and that one day he was like a different person. The confusion in his eyes those days broke his heart . The next day he would sober up and make it up to him ten fold showering him with toys and treats and he bounced right back . He cry’s about the bad days he had put him through and the ignorance and selfishness that his addiction caused … he has been gone a year and he cry’s multiple times a day because he loves
him and miss him so much but his regret is eating him away. I want honest opinions on this … 99 percent of his life was amazing with constant adventure but it was those days .. 1 day a week for years that he feels so ashamed of .. please don’t hold back and give me the honest truth … how bad is this ? Did he hold resentment towards him ? “He” is just so ashamed… btw this person has been clean and sober since his dogs death.