u/DoofusMcStupidFace

Although being on hrt does prevent things from getting worse, it doesn’t really reverse the effects of puberty, the thing that turned me into a man. No amount of effort will change my bone structure. And yea I’m aware that there are cis women with unfortunate genetics, but they seldom look like a man. Even if they do their frame is never as big and manly as mine. I can’t even bone mash my way to passing cause I need to have less bones not more 🥀🥀. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to afford all the surgery I need, cause I’m a stupid dumb dumb and I can’t bring myself to actually try and put a ounce of effort into doing well in school, and I might just be working at the same restaurant till I die. I don’t even have anything to compensate for being so manly and ugly. I’m not particularly good at anything, I’m really stupid, and I’m boring and have no personality.

I feel like I look like the image that pops into peoples minds when they say “mockery of womanhood”

Had to wait not till I was 18 like literally every other state that barres minors from gac but freaking 19 dawg 🥀🥀, ts just makes me so sad cause it’s like ive already been turned into this ugly man, ive been on hrt for a bit over a year now and ts just seems hopeless. Everyone i see that transitioned late and was able to successfully become a woman got like ridiculously lucky and was barely even affected by testosterone, like god damn, must be nice ig. The only thing keeping me going is hope that im wrong and testosterone actually didn’t completely fuck me over, and one day I’ll actually look somewhat like a woman, but deep down I know that’s prolly not the case. And like i do feel kind of bad because Ik my dad was miserable in California, and he seems so much happier here, but shit I can’t bring myself to not be at least a little angry

Idk how :(

All I ever do in my free time is be sad cause im weird and boring and have no friends and am ugly