1 month ago, this ex of three years came out of nowhere and told him that she broke up with him 2 years ago because she was in love with her guy best friend and got into a relationship with him 5 days after breaking up with my guy friend.
Mind you, my guy friend would always tell me about how sad he is about her. In the last 3 months, he did really get attached to me that is true, but then after his ex said she actually broke up for another guy, he started getting more lovey dovey with me. And 3 weeks ago, he said he got feelings for me ( I already have had feelings for him in the past). Things escalated ever since then. Within the last 3 weeks, we've made out done stuff I am not very proud of. Mind you, I've never been in a relationship before this, and I can't be with this guy due to religious differences. I tried to cut him off, but he said that'd hurt him and to please not go off contact because he really values the friendship. We've tried to go back to being friends, but things only keep escalating. And for he life of me I can't take a stable decision because this guy really is my friend, my go-to person now the thought of having to completely lose that is scary and I know I can't cut him off but here is no future with this person so I don't want to commit to anything and he doesn't either. I'm just getting used. That is what I feel. I feel stupid for letting my emotions get the better of me. He keeps saying that I'm hurting him by not validating his feelings and that just because he has trauma doesn't mean that he does not have feelings for me. But I think this is just that. And I can't get out of the loop. I am obsessed with this guy. I need to let go but can not. Legit throwing my self-respect and morals through the roof to some who will not commit to me, and I can not commit to.