I'm sorry we can't be friends
You haven't done anything wrong all you ever did was be a good friend to me but every time we have drifted apart just to become close again I fall for you like it's the easiest thing I've ever done and I'm just not sure you know how much you mean to me.
Getting to know you has been one of the nicest things to happen to me and I don't regret a second of it despite keeping most of my feelings on the surface. I haven't been this close to someone for a while and I'm glad I was able to overcome my fear when I told you how I felt but obviously it just wasn't meant to be. I believe in my mind I have accepted it and tried my hardest to be there in a capacity that is comfortable for me but some days are harder than others as I keep feeding the loop that maybe you might choose me despite me seeing no signs for it. I do wish I wasn't wired this way and we can just be the way we are without being all in my head too much about it.
At times you do confuse me as we always seem to choose each other when we are feeling a little lonely or when things aren't going well we like to balance each other out by being ourselves with each other but then I suppose that just what good friends do.
You might have noticed that I have been a bit distant with you lately and it's a combination of protecting my feelings and trying to get my head on straight so I can be there for you the same way you have for me just without the complicated feelings because it's not fair on either of us. Just know that whatever happens I will always be there for you and thank you for all the patience and kindness you have shown me.