I've initiated divorce
How does it work that you can initiate divorce with such conviction that it's the right thing but it still hurts and you feel bad? Facebook/phone throws up pictures from walks out and about. Family photos and I feel a little pang.
My husband is an alcoholic, he seems to be getting better but I've had three years of the worst of his drinking and I'm tired. He's been a drinker the whole marriage but a few weeks ago found him passed out in the car and I had to find and take him home. Engine was running, he was passed out. I had to walk back to get the car.
He's become a different person but I still miss the old him.
I also don't like who I've become in the relationship. I feel like I have done/said things that aren't me just from being so anxious about the drinking.
If I know it's the right thing and we don't work as a couple why do I still feel sad? Why do I get these pangs. Is it normal to think about the happy times when you know that nearly every holiday/event was tinged with an argument/him getting drunk?
We're still very early on but I feel like I'm making a huge decision. Everyone around me says it's the right thing. I just don't want to hurt him. Despite the anxiety making me lose almost a stone in just over a month.