How to be intentionally grateful
Apologizing in advance if this isn’t the right thread to post
I have had this feeling for such a long time where I feel ashamed of my own ambition. I’m deeply grateful for what I have, and when I think about how much others struggle, wanting more feels selfish.
I really notice the struggle of people around me in the day to day. I think about the people living in war zones or famine, who don’t have access to healthcare or basic necessities. Where every day is literally a quest for survival. That I’m living the dreams of millions of people.
I think everyone who is generally in a socioeconomically secure place feels this (at least I hope they acknowledge their privilege). Sometimes I get swept away into wanting a specific physical thing because it’s trendy or wanting to travel somewhere and I truly feel disgusted with myself for wanting something when so many live in poverty. Sometimes I feel so disillusioned when talking to my friends about their issues - do they realize how good they have it?
I think part of the mentality of my ambition is that if I’m more “successful” I am in a better place to help and provide. I do what I can now by donating (though I should really do more) and educating myself. At the same time I know I shouldn’t be so hard on myself and understand that appreciate it. But sometimes I find myself so engrossed in my day to day routine that I forget about my privilege and the suffering around me until like I’m reminded (usually by the news) and feel like a punch to the gut.
How do you all manage this feeling? Any words of advice appreciated.