u/Doriz879

I constantly get anxious about my future. Seeing everyone else become successful in life, it makes me insecure about myself, and overthinking amplifies my anxiety. I always pray to God for guidance and strength, yet i still question myself even though im praying for guidance. It makes me wonder whether it is just a bad chapter or a problem that would change my life permanently. And im afraid to confront the inevitable challenges because i feel cowardly to face them on my own.

I have been insecure about myself ever since puberty. After I turned 14 years old, my perspective on life has changed, and my voice has become deeper. My appearance intensifies my self-perception because whenever I talk with others, they instantly judge my voice, thinking that it doesn't match my personality, which amplifies my insecurities in socialising. They have frequently exploited me, and I cannot face them because my composure wavers. It hurts so much, and I cope through instant gratification. Currently, I still repeat the same actions, and I want to change to overcome the fear of being judged and the overwhelming social fears.