u/DotZealousideal4998

ike i wake up, go through the motions, come home, do it again. and its not even that anything is specifically terrible its just grey? everything feels grey. i had some extra money and used a bit of it last weekend to go out with friends thinking it would help and i just sat there smiling and nodding feeling completely hollow inside.

nobody around me gets it either. everyone's like "you just need sleep" or "maybe try going to the gym" as if i havent heard that 400 times. i dont want anything i just want someone to sit with me and not try to fix it.

idk maybe im just complaining. but it feels like i havent actually felt anything real in months and thats starting to scare me a little