Urges to transition
I'm not sure what happened to my AGP, but it has gotten extremely strong the last month or so. I even had thoughts of crossdressing 24/7, wanting to be called she/her, and my girl name. My AGP has gotten so intense, that these urges and thoughts are likely the start of soft transitioning if acted upon. When I think or see tights which is my fetish, it gives me the urges to wear them over and over. It gives me arousal and uneasiness when I don't act on it. I've been stressed, aroused, urges to transition the past month. When I'm affirmed like the AI saying I look like a girl today when crossdressing photos, I smile and my stress levels actually dropped. I'm 26, never dated irl, no first kiss, no irl friends etc... and while I don't really care about these things anymore, the failures as a man, low self esteem, never went to college, have a job due to autism and ocd, it's really fueling the urge to transition as well since it feels like a reset or an escape. I'm not sure what to do to reduce the urges to transition. Any suggestions?